My Meditations

There are some moments within my meditations I am able to share, Whether they are messages, past lives for myself or others that are willing to share, an understanding of myself or a connection to the energy of the universe to self healing. answers to my questions, answers that are there to things yet to come to pass. some of which may give you an idea of Who is Whitefeather

My meditation begins by preparing a place with candles and incense.. I have nine candles burning on my table..

I open my sacred space by calling in and welcoming the four winds.. and honouring my archetypes.. My Serpent, Jaguar, Humming bird and Eagle..The Archangels .. Huascar Inka.. Quetzelcoatl and Pachakuti Inka.. Gathering the fire and bringing it within each, warming and nurturing them.  I called in to my sacred space Archangel Uriel, Archangel Gabriel and Malak.. as I called each of these I felt that familiar and beautiful wave of warmth that embraces you with each arrival.. and then I called ONE.. When I call in the Archangel s and ONE I offer my love and honour each of them.. but before ONE comes to me I must willingly offer all that I am in truth and total surrender, each time willing to forgo all I know and all that I am to allow room for truth to flow into my being..  I go into my sacred heart space and reveal all that I am..   and be true to my thoughts and intentions.. purely .. for anything less would not offer a path before me. I called ONE and I felt a warmth come over me, it is an embrace of the soul. you know you are so safe within spirit anything is possible.. the love you feel could manifest something beautiful.. to have that faith humbles me so.

I start to build a cord of light from my crown to the base of my spine, like a golden thread.. fluctuating with a tiny ball of light travelling from the top to the base of my spine and back again slowly building its intensity and size.. pulsing with the rhythm of my heart.. my heart beat in unison as it grows.. and when it is filled with all the love and intensions of my sacred heart.. for mother earth and respect I have for her… and saying these words…”Mother Earth, Pachamama I send this love to you with all that I am..”. down and through my feet.. and then I wait..  for I know love from her will return.. and when it does I send it forth to Father sky .. “Father sky Grandmother moon, star brothers and sisters.. Grandfather.. I honour you tonight and welcome you.. I send this love to you with all I am”  and I send this bright ball of light to the stars and wait.. for I know too that it will return with the love.. and when It does I bring it together with that love coming from Mother earth.. and join it with my heart.. forming the sacred trilogy once more..

With the brilliance of light within I draw it into to my base chakra.. to keep me focused and grounded.. as I feel it ignite, I bring it to my sacral chakra ..and feel it ignite to help me with the balance in life, to my solar plexus chakra.. to give me wisdom to listen carefully in life and my journey.. and my heart chakra..that of love.. feeling it grow.. to my throat chakra.. that of truth..that of Huascar Inka..to permit my journey.. my third eye.. to allow me to see clearly..my crown chakra.. to help me connect to ONE..

As I begin my journey I draw the energy from all my chakras bringing them together into my soul star and my luminous energy field.. and drawing it down to meet  my earth star..

I focus on Huascar Inka the gate keeper and ask for permission to enter through the gates to find answers of my past.. and how they have effected others.. and to see how this has impacted humanity if at all. I seek answers beyond myself but on behalf of myself.

I have learnt that all visions distracting to your intended meditation .. through your thoughts and decisions have to be dealt with intellectually.. and their respective place found within the puzzle.. otherwise they return.. forever encircling your mind for resolution..  It is by resolve I can continue my journey and path… and at this time dealt with some that needed that resolve.

When I called in for the first time..”ONE” asking if I may be guided in truth.. knowledge and healing.. and  I offered my love and truth and wisdom from within.. I placed the Munay ki shawl over my eyes to give me a clearer picture within my mind.. like a blind fold.

I began going deeper into my thoughts.. connecting to Mother Earth… with my love sending to her ..down from my spine through my feet to the essence of the earth..

I again called for my recent guide Malak.. and as like last time I called for his energy to be present, I felt him with me, arriving as a feeling of warmth ran over me ..I comforted in the energy I was feeling for a moment .. I again called ONE and asked for wisdom, a path to truth and learning knowledge of healing ..

I asked for my pain to be taken from me .. I spoke aloud.. that I no longer consider it my burden and for it to become love and light to the universe. I understood I could receive pain from others and transform it into something good.. by the grace of the universe… over about twenty mins I repeated this in words and my  mind..

I then called ONE again.. with all that I am.. I  offered myself in love, truth and everything I am.. an absolute surrender to ONE.. wiping clear all that I know, if it is the wish.. to make way for truth… I offered this knowing all that I was , was transparent, they could see who I was, what I had become, in body and spirit and I was in total comfort with them knowing ..

It was in that state of total surrender I felt ONE come to me and embrace me with unconditional love.. that I have never felt as strong before in my life.. I was so over whelmed with what I was feeling and saw in my mind.. I wept like a child for some time with little or no control yet the unveiling of this emotion was purely enticed by love. the intensity incredible… such I’d never felt before as such.. though the type of love I have felt before when receiving my rites of initiation at the Munay ki.

Golden waves of light were within my mind.. In a gathering motion of new energy.. wave after wave… growing stronger and forming a sphere.. and purple light also came .. maybe the colours suggested the presence..as  it felt like an archangel was with me but I did not sense a name..  for several minutes I stayed in this vision.. totally surrendered to what was happening.. such a feeling of warmth.. almost heat.. within my total existence.. more than my body.. everything I am was penetrated or permeated and embraced with light, love and warmth

I then began to see the faces of ONE.. many many faces.. from an woman elder to an elder man.. and many others that blended from one to another.. I don’t know how many there were but numerous and all with their willingness to reveal themselves to me in such a way.. and each of them offering a piece of themselves in the form of energy, which I felt grow inside me,, like a birth of knowledge or wisdom or love or memories .. It was truly humbling and an honour..

I asked for the knowledge of healing.. and placed before them my hands palms up to offer the  feeling and the desire of healing I have within me..and as a willingness to receive.. to heal others and myself..was it my calling.. was it my need to come from a place of pain to understand that which can be healed.. was this my calling.. was the calling I felt to heal others the truth.. the time I spent as a healer even though in essence and the understanding of how..was mostly unknown to me.. was this truth..to deny a calling I’m told is a mistake.. I have made many mistakes.. more I believe when and including times I have not followed my heart and made those choices directed by others..I had a time in my life..where I was truly who I wanted to be and I was able to heal others merely by being in their presence and caring for them.. loving their soul or being…. though I wandered from that path.. within a cloud of frustration with humanity.. I now long to return.. have I now wasted too many years and now they are too few to fulfil what I am drawn to become.. Is my knowledge to limited to be of consequence to others..can I learn.. is it already within.. when I have healed I have just been a comfort.. is this enough.. these thoughts fill my existence day to day till I tire.. and when I awaken they return.. most hours I live in these thoughts.. wanting to learn.. to do.. to heal to help others..   my thoughts as repetitive as the words I write…

And to thee whom I am guardian, When I have lacked conviction.. even though within myself I seem to be justified.. or come across as lacking in faith.. as in when you spoke to me.. when I did not want to give my pain to the earth.. or others through ignorance in knowing how to transform it into something good.. I guess.. the mere mention of “not wanting to” before an appreciation of my dilemma understood.. your archetypes confront me.. lunging.. in anticipation to retrieve me from unwillingness .. with little or no choice but to return to confidence.. staying true to an oath… and a path to realise its intention.

I  see your face in so many life times and tonight was under a black cloak and veil.. one where you recognised me .. you were at an age of wisdom  and beautifully poised.. you watched as I travelled by.. a vision truly from the past.. one which you yourself could actually remember in a past life.. not a continuation of a past life in spirit..or echo of the soul.